My world had been very different before I had a baby. The freedom! Oh I could do absolutely anything I wanted at anytime. I worked really hard (sometimes too hard) and played really hard too. I didn’t have anyone else to think about except myself.
I have to admit that I had been one of those people who used to say, “when I become a parent, I will work and still play. I won’t let my kids hold me back from having fun.” Boy, was I naive!
My paranoia evolved when I became a mom. I had no idea that love could be more extreme than anything I’d ever felt before. In fact, I love my son so much that I feel as though any fear I had in the past is outweighed by the feelings I get when he’s sick or even the idea that anything bad could happen to him. Hence my need to rethink about every action I take now before I do anything.
I choose to be a stay-at-home mom because of my own insecurity about not being around for my son during the early stages of his life. NOW I know why many moms did it! I understand! Of course there maybe other reasons, such as child care, especially for parents with multiple children, and more that I’m sure I would find out if I’m ever blessed with more than one child.
In addition to what I thought I could do as a parent before becoming one, I had absolutely no idea why parents fussed so much about children. I didn’t dislike children. I thought they were cute little people, but I really couldn’t see what all the fuss was about. Why do parents talk so much about their children? It was like a nonstop thing with some of the parents I knew. All they did was talk about what their children did all day! It was exhausting to be completely bored listening to stories about kids all day!
Since I’ve had my little boy, all I could do is talk about him! Every day, week, and month, I can’t believe how he advances and is just able to do more as he grows. I am ecstatic that he could understand me now. When I tell my cousin, who’s single and have no children, she looks completely bored, which made me remember that exact feeling! I knew exactly what was going on in her head!
What were your thoughts about parenting before becoming a parent?