Reader “No Porn” writes:
My husband and I have been married for 4 years. I got married when I was fresh out of high school and he was 28 years old, so we have a 10 year age gap. He and I are so compatible, but the one thing that throws my energy off with him would be pornography. I know, I know.. This is common and I do think that pornography is healthy for him right now while we seek better balance. More than anything, I feel like I have to reroute brain pathways to be okay with porn. I feel as though I was trained to be against it.. And I’m not sure how to get past that. I want realism and honesty of nature. But I was raised to have a fantasy.
I applaud you for writing in and for your awareness that it is unreasonable to condemn your husband for watching porn. Especially because you’re “seeking better balance” which I’m going to read as “you probably just/recently/within the past decade had a baby and you now don’t want sex as much as he does so you’re at like 1-2 times a week max and he wants sex every day.” Just call me Dr. Psychic Mom. Or someone who has seen a lot of couples in this situation that use those kinds of euphemisms.
So look, here are some ways to compromise re: pornography.
1. “If you don’t watch porn I’ll have more sex.” Before some woman writes in saying I’m telling women to prostitute themselves in exchange for a man not watching porn, let me just give you this scenario:
You want your husband to stop drinking soda because you watched the documentary Fed Up (was that a good plug? I loved that movie and everyone should watch it) and now you’re worried about his health. So he says I can’t stop drinking soda, because you won’t let me drink enough water. And you say, No, the point is that you should stop drinking soda and also that I should dole out the water, and only enough water that you’re still always thirsty.
What kind of idiot is going to stop drinking soda if the water supply is cut off too? Bam, rhetorical question answered.
So maybe you’re like, Okay, but I’m going to offer sex like 2-3 times a week and he still wants it 7 days and I just cannot swing that. So then I tell you, fine, so tell him, I’ll have sex 4-5 times a week and since that’s a big deal for me, can you just TRY to not watch porn for the other 2-3 days? You can masturbate but no porn because I hate porn because the women are better looking that me and they have bigger boobs and it’s unrealistic and showcases unrealistic male female relationships or whatever else your issue is. Maybe he’ll say yes.
But the down side to this compromise, even if it works, is that overall I think you need to address your repulsion toward porn, and overcome it, because this will allow you to be more openminded and tolerant in general, not to mention more empathic toward your husband’s perspective.
2. “Let’s watch porn together.” There are plenty of kinds of porn. Some types are better than others. Every pot has its cover and every person probably has some porn that they find at least a little bit arousing. Plus if you watch it and enjoy it, even a little bit, you may stop hating the idea of him using it. Also, your husband will think you’re awesome. An alternative to this is that you watch some porn and/or read some erotic stories alone and when you find something you like, send it to your husband. He will think you’re super sexy and will appreciate your open-mindedness and may even use your pre-selected porn next time he uses porn. So at least you’re involved.
3. Go to therapy and/or do some deep introspection about the way that you were raised to think about porn, and sex in general. You seem to know you were fed a line of BS somewhere along the line, and if you’re insightful enough to realize that, then you’re insightful enough to realize that porn isn’t “bad,” it’s pretty normal. Men are visual, they like sex, they like novelty, and especially if they are in monogamous relationships where sex occurs at a frequency that they aren’t comfortable with. You could take the perspective that it’s great he has a high sex drive and you don’t have to worry about him rejecting your advances.
If you were raised to think that nice girls don’t like porn, this is just not true. 66% of men and 41% of women watch porn at least monthly and a third of all visitors to adult websites are women. So, women like porn too, but you wouldn’t know, because 70% of women keep their online adult website activity secret.
So here are my take home points:
Your husband loves you, I assume, but he also has a higher sex drive than you, so porn use is what he does to cope. He’s not cheating, and I bet he’d take sex with you over the porn every time (if I’m wrong, there may be other issues to explore). Even if you don’t want sex, you can offer a hand job or something. There are ways to increase your libido as well. Good girls can like porn, so try watching some with your husband. At the very least it will start to seem boring to you rather than repulsive or “wrong,” and then you’ll just have the same attitude about it that I have about my husband’s fantasy football involvement. Actually porn is better than fantasy football because he can’t be on the smartphone watching porn while you’re trying to have a conversation with him. (If he is, get thee to counseling, stat.)
Thanks for writing in, and until we meet again, I remain The Blogapist Who Says Try It Again, Even If You Tried It Like 5-10 Years Ago. Porn May Have Improved Since Then.